You could’ve hurt me worse. For instance, by treating me as badly as I treated you.
By: Twitter Buttons She lives inside a safety bubble. She loves to sing but is too shy and can only dance and move on stage with the influence of alcohol. She's a friendly creature, but pissing her off is another story. This is where she hides and explodes.
Hello dear, a few more days and you’re a year older again! :))
I love fisheye! :) photo by Nico Servando :)
Key Deletes
I still write you drunken emails, but now the older, wiser me deletes them without sending. I still wonder what you’d reply, though.
Bracing myself
…for the weekend.
And I think/wish/hope my parents had forgiven me already.
So… Full days are starting in about… 2 hours.
I’m going to my former office to get my 13-month pay (heehee) and watch A Christmas Carol in 3d with you. After my brothers’ excitement, I too, cannot wait to experience IMAX (yea I’m a bit of a first timer but I will surely watch Alice in Wonderland in imax too) so there ya go.
Aeda and I will be painting shopping tomorrow. Then we have a gig at Katips Bar.
Lantern parade the next day plus FA concert, then straight ahead to the Tower of Doom Christmas Gig. Saturday will be Walls of Hope, 04 Reunion (although I’m not yet sure if I’ll go) and FA Cubism Party. Alva will treat my family out on Sunday. Monday’s a rest day. Tuesday’s my parents’ wedding. Wednesday’s Danjo’s coming back party and also UPIS friends’ party. Whew.
So anyway where was I? :)) Oh. Goodmorning. I just have to recall some stuff.
I’ve been thinking of working outside the country and focusing on myself and my career this coming 2010. There are just, things that are sort of stopping me from doing it like UP itself, been living in the campus for years now, the friends I got here, my boyfriend, my band, my family… But there’s something y’know, kinda pushes me to go out, so… Why not give it a try? Sounds scary but, I like scary.
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Windburn by IndayBote
Follow the same routine
Common sense fading
And oh, the regularity
Never drained me
As I putrefy
Swaying my way repeatedly
And the vow to never speak your name again
Flashing warning lights
I regret to have ignored
And I wish to never hear from you again
Oh I know, you’ll only fade away in the end
Is it really possible
To avoid your darting eyes
How undeniable
I’m sinking with my own lies
It would be unbelievable
To put an end in all of these
Indefinable contentment
I’m trapped in this labyrinth
Is the space enough for you to crawl into the hole
I have no more time for a thousand explanations
I let my own words embrace me
Permanently, truthfully
To shield me away from this distraction
This is the older version, slower which means more emotions, normal voice unlike the new mix, made my voice really small haha. :P
Made this for a friend. December 08. Been a year.
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60 Seconds After She- The Out of Body Special
If only I had learned of this pattern of disaster
Do you think this would still happen?
Or do I enjoy such flagellation?
And the very next day (January 12, 2009, Saturday at Club Dredd Eastwood) even if I was semi-grounded and still had a slight hangover, I still managed to drop by our org’s Christmas party, wouldn’t miss it for anything :)
I super enjoyed the night, had the time to breath and listen to our org’s amazing bands, oh and by the way, sorry Alva I wasn’t able to see you guys perform :[, I think the moment you were on stage, I was crying in front of my Mom like a baby, apologizing and stuff, pero gumana naman diba, heehee :) so at least I saw you, thanks for drinking my free beer, wasn’t ready to drink yet, tubig lang, and thanks for coming home with me. I was a bit nervous while we’re on the way. Thank you Nikki and Chino for taking us home (heeee)
I super love my org :}
Nagsisimula pa lang ang Christmas night outs :)
Friday, December 11, 2009 :)
We’re finally complete again, no wait,in fact, extended this time (plus bfs/gfs). Aeda treated us (you sneaky girl) at Kanin Club in TechnoHub. Oh we missed her so.. It took awhile to really sink in that she’s really with us (well at least for me, I’m really slow with things)
Since KTV bar’s full and other bars around Katipunan, we bought drinks and spend the rest of the night at Aina’s place. It was fun, till the morning came, I couldn’t remember a thing. My friends took me and Tata home dead drunk. Wrong move! They woke up my Mom at 5 in the moring (no one does that! Not even my FA friends nor MC friends haha, you have to wait till I’m sober!) So anyway, they din’t know that so it’s fine. But I got scolded by Ma, and swore I’d never drink much again. It took Pa a while before he talked to me again, so, lesson learned. They were so worried, and I’m sorry. But still, we missed you Aeda. I’m sorry you saw me like that. I really have no idea why I was like that :P will never happen again.
